hello everyone! i just got the chance to update because i just got home form my 3 placements b/c of my wonderful mother. ok i will explain. my mom and i got into a fight and i told her i couldnt take it anymore that i didnt want to live with her anymore and she said "fine i cant take it and im not gonna die for u" she said that b/c she was in the hospital b4 our fight and was dignosed with diabetes. but anyway i went to school the next morning and she came w/ my dad after school made me take all my books and admitted me to latrobe mental health again and was there for 10 days then from there i went to a program in greensburg and was there for 2 weeks then i went to a respite place in tarentum and was there for 30 days or so theni finally came home and i have counseling again w/ the same people as last time. but the reason i was gone so long was b/c i didnt want to go home and my mom didnt want me home at first then i just didnt want to be home. but now i am and so far everythings been going ok theres been some fights where i almost got placed again but it didnt happen.and while i was in all those places i found out im dignosed with a whole shit load of things. i have obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD), oppositional defiant disorder (ODD), major depression, post-tramatic stress disorder (PTSD), and reactive attachment disorder (RAD). so now they have me on lexapro 20mg which is the highest dose their allowed to perscribe b/c of how strong it is, i call them my happy pills b/c they make me happy, but i still can be a total bitch if u piss me off. but yeah thats why i wasnt on for a long time and i decided to get on b/c my sisters out with a friend and wanted me to wait up for her so i figured i'd update so u who dont get to talk to me often or see me dont think i died or something...lol... but yeah thats about it so im gonna go check out some of ur guys blogs and see what u've all been up to. so yeah bye for now...
~KIARA~ 
<---thats what i say to my mom...lol...jk
sorry i havent updated in a long long time but i've been really busy and moms been home all the time and when she does go somewhere i usually have to go with her because i couldnt be left alone because she thought i might hurt myself but i havent done that since september so i can be alone home now i'm so happy!!!! and my counseling sessions are over they stopped on the 1st of this month. now i have a case manager but she only comes like once a month. and shes going to take me out getting job applications and i get to do things with other kids who have been through the same things as me. but so yeah thats really all for now so i'm gonna go but ill be back on soon hopefully. bye for now.
love ya
kiara
live todayPapa Roach "Do or Die"
today i saw my hero fall apart
the one who taught me to be strong
on the outside i look fine
but on the inside i am dyin
my strenght is overcome by pain
my love for you remains the same
loneliness is setting in
i have no one to free myself
its never to late to live your life
the time is now its do or die
its never to late to live your life
the time is now its yours and mine
now its my time to help you out
cuz you were there when i was down
its hard for me tofeel this way
losing all your sanity
you help me keep my dreams alive
without you how will i survive
its time for me to be a man
now i finally understand
its never to late to live your life
the time is now its do or die
its never to late to live your life
the time is now its yours and mine
its never to late to live your life
the time is now its do or die
its never to late to live your life
the time is now its yours and mine
i cant run aymore, i cant hurt anymore
i cant run anymore, i cant hurt anymore
today i saw my hero fall apart
the one who taught me to be strong
on the outside i look fine
but on the inside i am dyin
its never to late to live your life
the time is now its do or die
its never to late to live your life
the time is now its yours and mine
its never to late to live your life
the time is now its do or die
its never to late to live your life
the time is now its yours and mine
its never to late to live your life
the time is now its do or die
its never to late to live your life
the time is now its yours and mine
i cant run aymore, i cant hurt anymore
i cant run anymore, i cant hurt anymore
YEAH!!!
can you feel it crush you?
does it seem to bring the worst in you out?
theres no running away frome these things that hold you down
do they complicate you because they make you feel like this?
of all the colors that you've shined this is surely not your best
but you should know these colors that your shining are...
surely not the best...colors that you've shined
surely not the best...colors that you've shined
i now you feel alone yeah
like no one else can figure you out
but dont you ever turn away from the ones that help you down
well they'd love to save you
dont you know they'd love to see you smile
but these colors that you've shined are surely not your style
but you should know these colors that your shining are...
surely not the best...colors that you've shined
surely not the best...colors that you've shined
i know your feeling like your lost (like your lost)
but you should know these colors that your shining are
i know your feeling like your lost you feel you've drifted way to far
but you should know these colors that your shining are...
surely not the best...colors that you've shined
surely not the best...colors that you've shined
surely not the best (i know your feeling like your lost)
colors that you've shined (but you should know these colors that your shining are)
surely not the best(i know your feeling like your lost you feel you've drifted way to far did you know these colors that your shining are...)
2. Age:
3. Fave Color:
4. Fave Movie:
5. Fave Song:
6. Fave Band:
7. Most Embarassing Moment:
8. Are you a virgin?
HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ...
1. Are we friends?
2. Do you have a crush/attracted to me?
3. Would you kiss me?
4. ...with tongue?
5. Would you enjoy it?
6. Would you ever ask me out or go out with me if I ask you out?
7. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater?
8. Tell me one odd/intresting fact about you:
9. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?
10. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before?
11. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me?
12. Do you/have you talk(ed) crap about me?
13. Do you think I'm a good person?
14. Would you let me sleep with you (in the same bed)?
15.Do you think I'm Hot?
16. Would you call me just because?
17. Would you ever listen to my problems even if they dont involve you?
18. If you could change anything about me, would you?
19.Would you have sex with me?
20.Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?
21. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?
as funny as this video is...ahh
short
Guess who I'm going to be for Halloween!